Friday, December 12, 2008

How I Really Feel

When I am pregnant I am moody, needy, clingy, unpredictable, emotional. And the person who has to bear most of my bad side is my husband. Of course because I expect him to understand what I'm going through. Some may say its psychological or all in the mind. I don't know. But sometimes, he just doesn't get it. And when he doesn't, I get all sensitive about it and would rather pout in one corner and sulk. Ok, you may add immature, childish and selfish to the list.

But seriously? That's what I hate about being pregnant. I'm just so full of insecurities inside. I find myself not being able to do things on my own anymore. Like a handicapped person, I can't move without someone beside me. And I prefer that someone to be my husband.

A bunch of emotions surges all over me and often times I don't know what to do with the feeling. I prefer not to tell anyone about how I feel out of sheer fear that they would tell me that I'm being unreasonable. And the feelings bottled up inside just make me feel like I want to explode anytime.

I'm glad I just have 87 days to go. Still a long time but I know we'll get there.

Is it just me? Am I the problem?

5 comments:

Heather said...

You sound like a normal pregnant lady to me. Getting closer isn't it?

Karen MEG said...

It's not just you, it's you being pregnant. Not unusual at all.
Hang in there, it won't be long!

Jennboree said...

Congratulations!!!

Pregnancy messes with the mind and the heart but you are completely normal!

I had to stop coming to your site because I got really frustrated that my computer couldn't handle your page, for whatever reason, and would lock it up. But it seems better now. YAY! :)

Sophiagurl said...

Happy Holidays! And wow, the new little one will make itself known in a few weeks. Good luck and I am sure your family will be very happy this Christmas!

Heart of Rachel said...

When I was pregnant, I had some bouts of mood swings. I also wanted my hubby with me all the time. I think that's just a normal part of being pregnant.

Wishing you and your family a memorable Christmas and a promising New Year. God bless.