Saturday, October 27, 2007

Powerful Experiences

Our comfort zones prove to be the best for us. We feel secure, confident. Worry is often a bit far from our minds. And fear, ah yes fear, fear is an alien in THAT zone. And when we are taken away from our comfort zones, suddenly we panic. Do we?

In the beginning, I think we all anticipate the consequences of change. Should we call them consequences in the first place? Or would it be better to say that, often times change itself is what stirs up the fear in our hearts. I think so.

As the days go by, that fear in my heart has slowly started to subside. But it never goes away and I think it will never go away until I am finally home for good. It lingers but I am more capable of suppressing it now. This has been a learning experience for and will continue to be. Yes, everyday is a learning experience but bigger changes bring about greater learnings. It is scary but as we learn to accept, we grow.

Last Tuesday, we celebrated Mom's 2nd year in her heavenly dwelling. And also, as the days go by, we learn to let go a bit. Not completely. Never. Acceptance may be the word for it I suppose. And slowly we learn to accept the fact that no matter what anyone says or does, people we love who have left us, will ALWAYS be a part of us. Our emotions ride with the tide though. SOmetmes we're up, and sometimes, we're low.



C said...

Oh, Louann! Thank goodness you left a comment on my blog, directing me to your new addy! That was the weirdest thing ever! I saw a bunch of weird links and thought that you couldn't possibly have posted them! Freaky!

This was such a thoughtful, reflective post. Your mom is in a good place :) I don't know if one can say that it gets easier, because I still have a hard time missing my aunt and grandfather and they passed away years ago. At least you have your love and memories of your mom :) She knows she is loved.

PS. Are you doing the NaBloPoMo thingy in November?

C said...

Me again. Just wanted to let you know that you've been awarded the BFF award! Come by my blog and you'll see :)

SusieJ said...

Thinking of you.

Midas said...

Hi Louann, I missed seeing you around. :)

I have been yanked and thrown out of my comfort zone so many times, I have gotten used to ocassionaly being out of it. I find that it's not so bad, and that it could be a source of adventure and excited.

However, I still prefer my cocoon of comfort zone, and life that good and unexciting.

I hope you're going to be back into your comfort zone. How much longer for your training? Is there anything I can do for you? A book I can send you maybe? I find they're good companions when I don't want to be alone.