Saturday, April 19, 2008

Thoughts 04.19.2008

(Palawan 2006)

Lately, I have been getting a lot of "me" time. Not really by spending time alone but I realized that "me" time can also happen when you choose to have it. And for me, my "me" time happens when I chose to shut out everything around me- all the chaos, all the drama, all the chit chat and just listen to myself.

I love to talk, I love to express my feelings and opinions but lately, I have been loving talking to myself within me. Just listening to my own thoughts. Assessing what I have to say -to myself- before saying it out loud.

During one of my "me" times - which was in the shower after doing gym, it dawned upon me that which each birth of my children, a death was closely accompanied by it.

On January 7, 2002 which happened to be my Mom's 54th birthday, my 91 year old grandmother (mom of mom) passed away quietly in the hospital. On February 24 of that same year, my eldest was born.

On June 6, 2006 my other grandmother (mom of dad) passed away quietly in her room in the house of my Dad's sister. My 2nd child was 10 days old.

I believe that with each loss comes a new addition. That mourning is always accompanied by dancing in the morning.

1 month after I found out I was carrying my 2nd child, my Mom went home to her heavenly dwelling.

We realize that life goes on. It always will. For us, it may stop for a while but it will go on just as the earth will never stop rotating. Every sunset reminds of the sunrise we must look forward to. With every breath lost comes a new heartbeat. We are reminded of who we are and of who we can never be, of what we are and of what will become of us.

1 comment:

Sophiagurl said...

You know I used to do that, whenever I am happy I became too afraid and fear that something bad will happen.

But lately I have realized - life is meant to be enjoyed and we are meant to be happy. It does not strictly follow that whenever joy comes, sadness will soon come after.

If you have not read it yet, please do get a copy of the book The Secret by Rhonda's worth reading.I have a post about it too...if you have time...come and visit me.

God bless!