Around 5:30 AM - pump milk, pump milk, pump milk
6'ish - have breakfast
6:30-7:00 - prepare my 7 year old for school (check bag, give reminders, etc).
7:30 - bathe baby and then feed the baby
8'ish - take a bathe prepare for work, play with 3 year old, pump milk, pump milk, pump milk
8:30 - leave home for work (heart silently breaking)
9-12 - live in boredom a.k.a. pretend to look for something to do at work while thinking of baby and 3 year old left at home
12PM - hail a cab and rush home
12-1 - pump milk, pump milk, pump milk. Feed baby. Play with 3 year old. Pump milk, pump milk, pump milk.
1 - Head back to work
1-6 - Think of kids. Wish I were home. Watch the clock tick till 6.
6PM - hail cab and rush home.
I know things will continue to get better, but right now, this is how I really, truly, honestly feel.