Today, my 3 year old son started "summer school." A 2 week program offered by the school where he will be studying this June to prepare the new students so that they could easily "settle in" come June. I brought him to school and had to hang around the campus for a while while he got comfortable with his new surroundings. I enjoyed it a lot. If I weren't on leave from work I could just imagine myself rushing to bring him and rushing to leave his school to get to work on time.
I'm not saying our days don't get hectic--yes they do. Just as I had
When I first started working, I was focused on my career and was determined to excel as an HR practitioner. I admit, there were times that I prioritized my work over my husband, my child and the home. But in the past 2 years, I have come to realize how much more important my family is and although I do still have my job, I look at it as something secondary to everything else. I am grateful I have a job but I have learned to say no to certain things especially if it will mean having to compromise my family.
So anyway, going back. I do wonder whether I have been loving this because I know that in 3 weeks time I will be heading back to work. Knowing that this kind of 'free time' on my side won't ever happen again makes me do my best and enjoy every single minute of being so involved in my children's lives and in keeping up the home. Maybe if it were the other way around, I would be loving and enjoying every single minute of whatever part time work I can do. Maybe.
I yearn for what I don't have. I'm scared about how things will be 3 weeks from now. I heard this line once on TV "At the end of the day, we still have to give the best of us and not what is left of us." I find that rather difficult to do after a long day at work.