OMG

Oh My God because there are just SO many things happening now -- with my kids, at home, at work and with hubby.

So I now have a 5 year old who will be moving up to Prep I this April. Eeeks! He has 2 years before he enters 1st grade. 1st grade!?!
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Dash turns 9 months today. Quite sad in a way. Just another reminder for me that my baby may soon not be a baby anymore. Arghh. And seriously, when I hold Dash in my arms - which happens very seldom now a days as he prefers to be moving around the house 'independently' - I secretly say to myself that, uh, I think I will want another one of these cute things by next year. Ahhh! I know, I am dreading that thought. I thought I was all good with my 2 boys why want another baby again?
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OK, aside from that I have been stressed just thinking about this: Our nanny wants to pursue a college degree (!). I know. And she wants to enroll by this June. She told me she will only be getting a few units so that she will have more time for Dash. I also have MY own plans of continuing my Masters degree while still working. And even if I have told myself a number of times that I will expect Jet to care for Dash while the nanny is gone I do not wish to pretend that that will be a perfect plan. Yes Jet can care for the kids. IN fact I can leave the kids with him for a whole day but not for DAYS. Like it becomes his routine? NO way. I know that we will end up fighting.
I have considered resigning -- even if I love my job. But if I leave my job, I will be throwing away my health insurance which also covers my hubby and the kids, a good enough compensation package and other perks that the family gets to enjoy. Come to think of it, I am pretty lucky to have my job, considering the fact that our city has very few big, transnational companies.
Unless hubby gets a job by then, then maybe I will seriously consider finding a part time job, like maybe tutoring ESL.
Then there's the dilemma with the nanny. Should I still keep her? Will it all be worth it? If I let her go, it is very hard to find a replacement, more so, someone like her. She has been with us for 3 years and has not caused us any major problems. I can trust my kids with her, I can leave the home and know that when I come back my house has not burned down, she never touches my jewelry and we trust that she never touches our money.
So what do you think?
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And oh yeah, hubby and I will be celebrating our 10 years of being together! Aahhhh! March 13, 1997. That was the day I met the boy who would eventually become my husband. Together for 10 years, living together for 6 years and married for 3 years.
More on our love story later.
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I gotta go stress myself out some more